My world and my thoughts
 
 
My world is screwed up. My world is diffrent. I wish it was, right now I feel like I want a world for my self, for the nice people. A world without the greed and sickness that's such a big influence on the world we live in. I want my own world. A world where people care about other humanbeings. About all beings. A world where people care about me. I can no longer stand the loneliness. Can you save me?

All day I keep thinking about things, that I can't do anything about. I feel bad, cause the world looks like it does. I don't know what I'm doing here. Why was I born? I don't even want to be a part of the evil. I want people to look up, realize what we're doing to the world. Start caring. That's all I want. I want love. If not love for the whole world, I want someone to love me. I need love. I can't live without having anyone confirming that I'm worth living. That I mean something, to someone.

I don't know what's happened. But I really feel down. I feel like I'm falling in a black hole and can't get up, even if I'm trying hard. I feel like I'm falling, crying for help. But there's noone there. No one hear my cries. No one cares. I just keep falling. Until someone notice me and help me get up. I need someone to help me. Cause I can't do it alone. I just want to feel happiness again. I want to feel love, and happiness. I need it. 

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Someone wrote in my guestbook something like "How can you say Broder Daniel is happy music. have you heard the lyrics" I got the question more than once. So I guess I have to explain it. And maybe change it. Yeah. Oh well. The reason why I wrote that is cause their music makes me happy, even if the lyrics are sad, I know they are. So I just wrote it cause the music makes me happy. Maybe I'll change it on my music page too. 

The person who wrote in my guestbook also wrote something like "You just feel sorry for yourself!" or something like that. I know I feel sorry for myself., I wish so much I didn't, I wish so much that my brain could think normal thoughts and not feel lonely or feel that I can't do anything right. I'm really trying to change myself, my thoughts. But it's so hard.  Maybe you can't under